Operation: Cannot Possibly Fail A Second Time

I was a painfully shy child, but somehow managed to grow into a competent, intelligent, confident, exploratory, and charismatic teen. Unfortunately, a sudden shift of environment and a lack of good guidance killed my burgeoning awesomeness. I realized this at some point late in college and it has become more and more evident now in graduate school. I have made a few conscious efforts to change this, but haven't succeeded in any major way. However, I still haven't accepted that it was a kill -9. I want that person back because I know I still am. I call it Operation Cannot Possibly Fail A Second Time. Yes, haha, it's from Southpark. But in all seriousness, I do realize, if I don't get this under control, I will NEVER become the top notch scientist I so strive to be and that happy person that I once was. I want this blog to help monitor my steps towards a better self and perhaps share some experiences with people with the same struggles. So no, it's not about Hitler, skinheads, it's about my struggle to conquer my weaknesses and achieve my goals in life.
Once a month, I will write a set of major goals, and write a self-evaluation at the end of the month. I'm going to post each night, what I want to achieve for the next day, and whether I'm successful at the end of the day. So help me, World. A struggle becomes a better experience when help and care is on the way. As Bobby Fischer said on his deathbed, nothing is more healing than the human touch.